What Should Not Matter (Chapter Three)

Rosa and Britta entered the Blue Star. It being aher brother but working for him as well.
large well lit diner that made use of its position atSuddenly, the sound which Rosa feared the most
the corner of the street by having entrances onwas heard. This given it brought back memories
both sides. It could also be said that the "Bluewhich Britta knew from where of they came. It
Star" was just that, with everything in the placewas the sound she recognized as the one her
being a dark blue; making it seem as if one werephone made whenever it was receiving a text
eating at the bottom of the ocean. There wasmessage. It was this sound which always caused
also a casual relaxing grace about this place whichin her the same reaction of near panic that on
its patrons seemed to appreciate, specially thosethis occasion rushed her to quickly get to her
who like Britta went there on their lunch break.phone; her having placed it in her left leg pocket
It was the Blue Star's lunch hour crowd whichof her overalls. As she opened the phone ( first
forced them to take seats at the long roundlooking through the window on the phone) she
counter that surrounded the cooking area. It beingsaw that the message was from her brother.
there where they were attended by Juan, theThe message whose content bought her relieve
black waiter from Costa Rica. "Hola, Rosa como(as it was nothing to worry about) was "Le has
estas? And how are you today Britta? And whatdicho a tu amiga la doctora lo que te pedi? Y
can I get you senoritas today? Here is the menu,cuando me va poder ver me para hablar?
you look at it and tell me what you want I beDerrepente manana antes o despues de tu
back." were the words from their sometimesconcierto el que tu me dijiste sera en el Parque
overly friendly waiter; who was so busy that heCentral podemos invitarla a algun lugar o en tu
did not even have time to stand around and gabcasa?". (Have you told your friend the doctor
or hear their reply to his question.what I asked? And when can we get together
"Britta, what you recommend I have today? Youand talk? Maybe tomorrow before or after your
know what is best for me and Geraldito, like youconcert in Central Park? We can take her
know I will call him." was what Rosa cried out tosomewhere or at your place.)
Britta, trying to be heard over the roar of those"It's from my brother Manuel, he asked me if I
who were also eating at the Blue Star. "Rosa youasked you to be his doctor, he asked me if he
eat what you want, you know what to avoid andcould speak to you maybe tomorrow before or
as I have already told you your weight is what itafter my concert at the park or at my place or
should be." was Britta response as she knew thatmaybe we go out somewhere for a drink? (now
most expecting mothers liked to be reassured ofher voice and face showing the idea that had hit
what they already knew to be true.her) Why you don't meet my brother here and
"Ok, I'll tell you what, since today is your turn tothen you two go to my concert together? He
invite, I will have what ever you are having." wascould meet you after work. You know tomorrow
Rosa's reply who seemed tired to the point ofI can't meet you till after the concert because I
not even wanting to look over the menu. Today,am going to be busy, so why don't you meet him
there was something about Rosa that Britta hadhere yourself and he will tell you what he wants
taken notice of. It giving her the sensation thatfrom you. Is that Ok?" cried out Rosa as she put
Rosa was waiting for the appropriate moment toher right arm around Britta; to thank her once
tell her something or perhaps ask her for a favoragain for what she was about to do for her
and it was while looking over the choices on thebrother.
menu that she could feel Rosa's eyes on her; as if"Ok, tell your brother I will meet him here
she were analyzing if now was the appropriatetomorrow at 18:00, after work and he can tell me
moment to say what thoughts her mind waswhat he wants from me and give me his medical
turning over.records.", Britta replying in her relaxed Swedish
There was something in Rosa's tone when shevoice which came in sharp contrast to Rosa's
said "Britta" that told her she wanted somethinganxiety while sharing a laugh which was drowned
from her which she felt uneasy about asking. Itout by the overall noise in the diner. It was at this
was as if she were making a request onpoint that Rosa felt the confidence she needed to
someone else's behalf or as if she were about tosend her brother a reply to his SMS, telling him
ask her something which she would have to thinkthat her doctor and best friend (since the death
over, like weather or not she would agree toof her spouse) was also going to be his doctor.
being Geraldito's godmother."Senoras, (this word making both Britta and Rosa
"Britta" now Rosa repeating her name for alook up) excuse me. Here are your orders, both
second time, as if she wanted her to stop lookingof you have the same today. So, buen apetito."
at the menu (which was no longer needed sincewas Juan, the "friendly waiter" or "simpatico
Britta had already made up her mind) and lookwaiter" as he was known to his customers; telling
her in the eyes; as she was going to askRosa and Britta that their orders had been
something of importance. Britta at that pointserved. Britta and Rosa both looked at each other
looked into Rosa's green eyes, reading that thereand at their meal which was on the counter and
was something on her mind which she could seethen at Juan, who was still waiting behind the
Rosa needed to ask. So Britta, not wanting tocounter with both his hands at his sides as if
assume that Rosa would ask something of herwaiting for them to say something. "Thank you"
simply said in her typically calm Nordic voice "Yes,was what they said together as Juan looked at
Rosa what is it?"them. "Excuse me, Britta but do you mind if I
Rosa was a person who was very talkative,speak Spanish to Juan?" Rosa asked Britta, who
exceeding any Britta had ever known but shenot being able to answer in words, as her mouth
noticed that on some occasions Rosa found itwas full simply nodded in the affirmative to Rosa;
hard to articulate and she sensed that this waswho started conversing with Juan.
one of them. Britta at that point knew that Rosa"Manana va venir mi hermano, tu te acuerdas que
wanted something from her but needed perhapste dije quien es el?".(tomorrow my brother is
a little push or motivation from her to say whatcoming, you remember I told you about him?) "Si
she seemed to be so desperately trying. Britta atcomo no, el es el boxeador, el nuevo mano de
that moment more as an instinct than anythingpiedra Panameno, yo he visto sus peleas, yo
else took Rosa's right hand (Rosa sitting oncomo tu sabes soy un gran fanatico del boxeo, el
Britta's left, occupying the rotating stool next tova pelear en el Madison Square Garden pronto
hers) with her left, which was the closest one andcontrata un Koreano para ponerse entre uno de
then rotated her stool to where these twolos contendientes al titulo" (Yes, of course he is a
women were facing each other. As Britta wasboxer, he is the new Panamenian "hand of stone",
now holding Rosa's left hand with both her handsI have seen some of his fights. I as you know
while looking her straight in the eye in a show ofam a great boxing fan. He is going to be fighting
affection that Rosa had never known herat Madison Square Garden against a Korean
Swedish friend to have. It was a look that at firstfighter in order to become one of top contenders
even frightened Rosa but then as she saw afor the title) was Juan's reply in his perhaps not
southing smile break from Brittta's lips (it travelingloud but enthusiastic way of speaking that
all through Britta's face, making Rosa secure ofreminded Britta of a radio announcer.
talking to a friend), who at that moment had alsoBritta loved hearing people speak Spanish, as she
been taken by the feeling of wanting to giveloved its melody which she could understand most
warmth through a simple physical act of holdingof as she was a fluent speaker of Portuguese;
hands.which she learnt during her long stay in Brazil. "Si,
Rosa at that moment felt a sensation she hades cierto lo que has dicho pero yo te lo mencione
gotten from very few people in her life, hera mi hermano porque manana va estar en Nueva
parents, brother, and late husband being thoseYork para ver mi concierto en el Parque Central y
who had given her the confidence to expresslo pienso mandar aca" (yes, it is true what you
herself like Britta was now supplying her with.said but the reason I am talking about him is
"Britta, you remember my brother or me tellingbecause he is coming to New York for my
you about he,?" were Rosa's words which sheconcert in Central Park and I am thinking of telling
said in a tone of voice that showed how relaxedhim to have lunch, here) was Rosa's answer
she was. "Yes, I remember you telling me aboutwhich surprised Juan at the thought of having a
him. You mentioned that he is a boxer who livescelebrity in his father's diner. "Que bien que tu
in Florida, who is quit well known but why do youhermano va venir aqui pero no entiendo, tu lo vas
ask?" were Britta's words which also showeda mandar que no va a venir contigo?"(That's great
relief. As it had been the not knowing that had ledyour brother is coming here but I don't get it,
her to worry but she could now see that thereyour sending him here, isn't he coming with you?)
was no need.Was Juan asking in confusion. "Si, mira lo que
As Rosa went on slowly, much more than usual,passa es que yo manana voy a estar demasiado
pausing between words as if she were crossing aocupada con lo del concierto que vamos a dar en
mine field; not knowing what Britta's reactionel Parque Central y por lo tanto el va tener que
would be or as if she were unsure of her ownvenir aca solo, para encontrarse con Britta" (yes,
English. "Well, how can I tell you? He is going toit turns out that tomorrow I am going to be too
have a fight, his first in New York, in Madisonbusy with the concert which we are giving in
Square Garden and it's a very important for hisCentral Park and that's why he is going to have
career as a professional." Rosa's voice starting toto come here tomorrow and meet Britta by
fill with a certain pride as she continued "Myhimself) was Rosa's reply to Juan, who she could
bother has asked me to get him a doctor, see hesee from the look on his face that suddenly
need doctor because his old doctor from Panamasomething had occurred to him which he said
is retiring and he needs a doctor to look at him,"Oye, como la va reconocer tu hermano quien es
please (now her voice taking on that desperatetu amiga? Acaso el la visto?" (Listen, how is your
tone of someone who is in need of a friend orbrother going to know who your friend is? Has he
someone's help) can you be his doctor? Of courseseen here?).
you would be well paid. He like I tell you, myRosa suddenly started thinking about what he had
brother is a top ranked contender so you hesaid as Britta continued eating her lunch, not really
would pay you well.".paying attention to what was being said. "Britta,
Britta was now taken aback by this request, as ityou remember what my brother looks like? I
was one she never expected anybody to make.showed once his picture but that was when he
She was confused and did not know what to say;was very young; maybe you won't recognize him
on the one hand this was the sort of requesttomorrow when you come? I have idea, maybe
which if from anybody else she would haveyou send him an MMS from your phone, that way
refused without thinking it twice but this washe will have your number and your photograph so
different. She being from a country where peoplehe know who you are and he can call you if he
never made quick decisions needed to get morehas a delay tomorrow." Rosa said to Britta, whom
information which she thought to do. "Rosashe could tell from her prickly smile was shy
(saying this as it was now Rosa who was holdingabout doing such things; prompting Rosa to say
her left hand with her right while looking at her"Come on, don't be shy.". "Ok, now I send him my
with those eyes of hers that were imploring asphoto by MMS with a message telling him it's me
much as her voice) I can't say yes till I knowand my number, he reads English doesn't he?"
more about what your brother wants and howwas Britta's reply to Rosa who just said "Yes, he
much time he wants me for. I can imagine he willspeaks".
pay me, that is not the problem but what would IJuan then (who overheard while attending the
have to do for him, would he want me to go toclient next to Britta and Rosa) said in his joking
his fights?" were Britta's words said in themanner, while Britta handed her phone to Rosa
insecurity of someone who is being asked to dosaying "Please, take my photo". "Si, es una buena
something she really did not want to do but onidea mandale el MMS si, no tu hermano no la
the other hand did not have the character to sayconoce, y yo creo que tu hermano le va gustar
no.esta, gringinta." (Yes, it's a good idea, send her an
"I am not really sure what you would have to doMMS, if your brother does not know her, I think
for him, that he could explain to you but I thinkyour brother will like this, gringa)."Oye, ten cuidado
his old doctor used to go to his fights and fromlo que paras diciendo de mi amiga y presta
time to time he would go for a check up but Iatencion porque ella entendiende el castellano
don't really know. It's best you talk to him but Iporque habla el Portuges, que tu lla sabes es muy
would like you to be his doctor because I feel Iparecido al nuestro idioma!"(hey, you watch your
can trust you. We need someone who will tell usmouth when you talk about my friend and be
the truth because sometimes my brother'scareful she understands Spanish because she
manager want to make him box when he hasspeaks Portuguese which like you know is similar
injury, you know to make money.". Rosa'sto our language) were Rosa's slightly indignant
request was so bizarre that it was somethingwords which she gave as an order to Juan as she
Britta never thought she would be asked. Shehanded Britta back her phone, after having taken
even had trouble imagining what it was that sheher photo (which Britta posed for by smiling, after
would be doing. Would she be required to waittrying to fix her hair with her hands) so Britta
ringside for Rosa's brother and check betweencould write a message which would accompany
rounds what toll the punches thrown by histhe MMS to be sent to Manuel's number; Rosa
opponents had taken on his face and body.having already given this number in case of
At this time Britta was really trapped betweenemergency.
not wanting to change her professional life and"Y quien dijo algo malo de tu amiga? Yo
wanting to help her friend. As she could see howsimplemente dicia que tu hermano probablemente
this was something of magnitude to Rosa and onle va gustar tu amiga, porque yo creo que ella es
the other hand extra money would never beel tipo de mujer que les gusta a nosotros los
unwelcome; as she could always see him afterlatinos." (What did I say? All I am saying is that
hours at the hospital. She really did not knowyour brother will probably like your friend because
what to do. She would have to think about it butyou know how Latin men like her type.). Britta
how to say it? How to tell Rosa that she neededwho had understood the general idea of what
time to make such decisions, without her friendJuan said after having sent the MMS said "Si, yo
getting the wrong impression that she wasse que los chicos Latinos, le gusta las Suecas
refusing. Rosa could see the emotions in Brittarubia, incluso mas que los chicos Suecos, yo me
which had become mixed and decided it would bedar cuenta de esto cuando estube en Brasil como
better to let her think it over, so she with theme miraban los muchachos, mucho mas que en
desire of not causing further strain on her friendSuecia donda miran mas las latinas como Rosa."
said "You don't have to decide now, you can think(Yes, I know how Latino Boys like blonde Swedish
about it but please promise me you will see mygirls, I noticed this when I was living in Brazil, they
brother and let him explain it to you; ok?". in away the men looked at me. A lot more than they
voice that let Britta know that she was alsodid in Sweden where they look at Latinas like
capable of understanding the dilemma her friendRosa) was Britta's comeback in Spanish which
might be experiencing. Britta however did not failsurprised both her listeners; who could see that
to notice the look on Rosa's face, as she said thissomething had come of the private Spanish
in the tone and with the look that one friend useslessons she had been taking. "You speak good
which says that come what may their friendshipSpanish, but excuse me I have go back to my
would not evaporate.work, enjoy your meal." Juan said laughing to
Britta at that moment stepped out of herself;himself.
laughing in disbelieve at her own decision and whileAfter that the two senoritas got to their meal
still keeping her hand in Rosa's; said "Ja, (yes inwhich they ate in almost complete silence, as
Swedish) I will do it!" in a voice of someone whonone of them could afford to use up much time
has just been convinced of something she neverfor lunch; specially with schedules that did not
thought she would be. Now, Rosa's joy was visibleallow them the freedom that other people
(like the time she had told her she was expecting)enjoyed. During their meal however they did go
with one of those spontaneous reactions thatover how Britta would spend the following night at
were so like her Latin American friend, as herRosa's apartment, a place where she had already
voice went to one of cheer when she said "Ok,spent many a night; on the evenings which she
you will talk to my brother?".had gone to see Rosa play with the New York
"No, I will do it, I will be your brother's doctor."Philharmonic. Britta not only had spent the night at
were the words Britta said in her own SwedishRosa's apartment but even had a closet full of
accent but using her friend's enthusiastic way ofher clothes which she kept for special occasions;
expression. As if she had caught some of heron which she would have to dress up.
Central American friend's flair which she at firstAt about 12:50, Britta suddenly realized as she had
found a little exaggerated. Rosa's feelings offinished her lunch that time had come for her to
delight took over her and made her hug hergo back to work; prompting her to say "Listen
friend quicker than she could realize what she hadRosa, I have to go back to work but I see you
done. Britta, however much to her own evenare not finished with your meal, so why don't you
further surprise welcomed her friend's hug andstay and I will call you (just then Britta was
didn't even mind her friend's kiss, which she eveninterrupted by the sound of an SMS reaching her
felt good about, as it let her know how much herphone) later to see how you are doing and don't
service as a doctor would mean.worry. I will meet your brother here tomorrow
"Senoras, que pasa aca porque tanta felicidad?"after work at six pm and here is 20 dollars. This
(Spanish for "ladies, why so much joy?") wasshould be enough to cover our lunch." in a voice
what they heard Juan say that interrupted thatthat like herself never showed how in a hurry she
which they were sharing as they turned awaywas, as she got up to leave the diner and her
from one another to face the counter. "Juan (nowfriend Rosa; to go back to the hospital where she
Britta speaking for both of them said) Rosa and Iwould have to do her rounds. Just as Britta stood
will have the same thing. So we'll take the chickenup and was about to leave, Rosa while looking at
special with the Greek salad and two cokes." "Ok,her friend standing over her (after having placed
coming up senorita Britta.", Juan cried out as heBritta's 20 dollar bill on the counter to pay the bill
jotted down their order on his pad.they had yet to ask for) joyfully said "Takt
"What did Juan say?" was Britta's question as she(thank you in Swedish) for everything but don't
continued savoring the moment she and hercall me. I have to practice, better we chat tonight
friend had shared. "Oh, it is nothing. He asked whyon Skype, I'll be on after 8." as her friend left her
we are so happy?" was Rosa's reply with thewith the hurried words "OK, hey doff" (good bye
relief that she and her friend would becomein Swedish).
closer, as she was going to be not only meeting